Fatherhood, preparing to be unprepared.

   Well as you probably know my beautiful wife and I are expecting our first child in ten weeks. There is so much for us to do in preparation of the baby. I am told the baby needs it's own room and that it can't just sleep on Ne-J's (our dog) bed with her. Apparently I have a lot to learn. I am, however, incredibly blessed to have a group of Christian guys to help guide me in this new leadership role as a husband. I am able to talk with them about what to expect and what to prepare for and they continually reenforce how excited they are for Camille and I to have a child. I have expressed a lot of concern about feeling unprepared for fatherhood and they have given me very good news. I can't prepare. In fact I have been alerted to the fact that the more prepared I begin to feel the harder it will be when the baby comes. Because parenting is dependent on the actions/needs of another, prayer is the most prepared I can be. Vowing to seek God in all things/decisions I make with my wife is the only thing I can do. My family and friends have offered up tremendous support in helping me to become a man who seeks the heart to the Lord in Husbandry and Fatherhood. So maybe I am prepared to take on this fatherhood thing. After all, Ne-J hasn't had any complaints.

Looking expectantly toward Heaven. Or more likely, just waiting for me to throw the ball.